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Nutella and Jesus.

So its about 4 oclock in the afternoon and it is pretty toasty. I have three fans on me and all the doors and windows open hoping for a draft of wind to find its way in. I thought I would be use to the humidity and heat coming from South Carolina…..but boy was I wrong.

I sweat constantly. All the time. 24/7. All day everyday. every moment.

For some odd reason I brought many jeans and sweats thinking since it’s the “rainy” season, I would need them. I was freezing while in Kona and I didn’t want to make that mistake here.

Well, there are only two seasons here. Hot and Humid.

But on the bright side…maybe im loosing weight from all the sweating im doing. I bought a huge jar of Nutella and have been eating it constantly.

As hot as it is here, I still love it. Tahiti is so great and im so blessed to do ministry over here. Its so beautiful and I get to watch Gods artistic fingers in the sunset every night!

To be honest, when first arriving to Tahiti, it was hard. Very hard. We have a big team. There are 17 of us and we constantly are around each other. We cant ignore or hide from one another cause we are bound to run into each other. And since there isn’t a YWAM base over here, we have had to find ministry oppurtunities and families that we can work with. So feeling “unneeded” has been big.

But its been getting a lot better. I got to go over to the island of Moorea and do ministry for Easter weekend. It was very stretching! Haha I had to sing in front of a bunch of people with my team. Thank goodness it wasn’t a solo or everyone would have run very quickly away from the stage. But there was a microphone. And I was suppose to sing into it… So I stood about three feet away from it and closed my eyes. Im not sure what the people heard, but I prayed they heard angelic voices…

We have been working with a local family here build their new home. They are such a strong Christian family and shine Jesus constantly. It doesn’t seem like work when we are around them. And they feed us the best food!!

We are starting to find more ministry opportunities here. Basically we are doing a lot of pioneering.

I always liked that word. But Ive found out how difficult it is.

So here our my prayer requests:

Its difficult to do outreach in such a pretty place. I feel like Im on vacation constantly and everywhere I look I see Gods beauty. French Polynesia is a lot like America. Very reached in terms of religion. So a lot of the people we talk to know who God is and don’t want anything to do with Him. Religion is forced upon the people here, so as newcomers coming in wanting to talk about Christ, the people are very defensive. And there is no easy way to talk to them because they speak French. And I don’t. No one on our team really does actually. We depend SO MUCH on our translator Hiro. He is definitely our hero…get it?

….haha so prayer for the language barrier.

Its also hard because I struggle constantly with comparing my team with my other classmates and their teams on outreach. I keep reading and hearing about signs and wonders they are experiencing and how they are seeing God move like crazy. We are seeing God move, but it very subtle ways. Its dumb to compare, but I so want to see those things! And my thought process is, why cant i? Its not because my team is faithless. Its not because we don’t have the authority. Its not because healings and demons are not present here in French Polynesia.

It all boils down too us not trying.

So im calling myself higher. I wanna see God move MORE. He has given us so much authority and has told us to use it.

So I may sound crazy and weird, but I wanna see Tahiti rocked. I wanna see people come to know Christ. I wanna see people healed. I wanna see people set free from bondage.

Satan is just nipping at these peoples heals and I want him to stop.

Our team is undergoing so much spiritual attack. Sickness, exhaustion, fears, etc. He is trying to hold us back and keep us knocked down. I think God has big plans for us here and we just cant see it due to all the blindfolds satan is putting on us. It seriously feels like we are trying to walk through loads of pudding over here.

Sounds fun and tasty, but feel free to try it at your own risk.

So prayer for comparison and strength.

Now don’t hear me wrong. I think our team is doing great and we are definitely bringing light to the darkness over here. And that’s fine. We don’t need to do any more.

But I WANT too.

I want more! More and more of Jesus everyday.

Ive been waking up in the morning so hungry. So I will nibble on my nutella, but it doesn’t help! I thought maybe im just not getting enough protein. (thanks to my mom, im always aware of my protein intake…just kidding mom) BUT that’s not it. I thought it was my stomach that was hungry…but its not. Its my soul.

I long for Jesus over here!

Leaving the Christian bubble in Kona where my soul got fed and watered everyday (whether I wanted it or not haha), I’ve become aware that here I HAVE to really spend time with Jesus or my soul gets hungrier and hungrier.

Its so dark over here and with my soul dry, I really don’t feel like doing or shining for Jesus. I just feel exhausted and lonely.

So like I said before. Im calling myself higher. I know God isn’t holding anything back from me. Again, He wants me to use the authority He has given me. He paid an incredible price for me to have it. So if I make a fool trying to talk to the frenchies, I will not stop. I will continue to build my faith if nothing happens. But I wont sit back and say I cant because the people wont understand, or I don’t want to be forceful, or im exhausted, or __________ fill in the blank.

I WANT THE TAHITIAN PEOPLE TO EXPERIENCE HIM.

I WANT TO SEE MORE OF JESUS.

So much more.

So please pray for my team and the attacks of the enemy. The darkness is so evident over here and sometimes its scary. But satan has no hold against us.

Hes just a small devil under our feet.